WiShFuLdReAmErVV's Xanga

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 21:56:00 GMT

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k, is that enough to get everyone's attention?

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 16:18:59 GMT

So, I updated my xanga. Finally... new layout and everything.

I've totally ditched xanga for myspace. lol.

http://www.myspace.com/crazylilvv

Please enjoy the layout and music. *waves*

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 06:29:48 GMT

Another gay picture (:

Two poems to add to the collection of emotional crap.

"Foolish Self Pity"

Slowly leaning my head back
Taking a deep breath
I let the sound linger
Then exhale all that's left

I'm only strong for awhile
Until it settles in
Then my head drops down
I'm defeated once again

I'm trapped in my sorrow
And drowned in my shame
It's clearly pathetic
To have this kind of pain

Love only makes us weaker
We're bound to be betrayed
There's no use trying anyway
Its damage will be made

But even with this knowledge
And the scars of my past
I can't help but keep searching
For a love that'll never last...

Okay.... that was written last night.. and I wrote this one tonight.

"The Easy Way"

Kiss me with passion
But turn away quick
Before I see your eyes

Hug me with adoration
But don’t look at my face
Just abandon me as well

I think that maybe now
With no attachment at all
It just wont ache as bad

So when you walk out
With your pitiful goodbyes
I’ll just look away

And forget....

Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 17:23:00 GMT

HOLY CRAP. I FREAKIN' HAVE NO MORE HAIR. OMG.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 17:06:27 GMT

New Song: "Sun" by Mae... but this is like... a different version. Er, yeah anyway.

This is the result of me and Grace's boredom... I was like
"Hey wanna go spike my hair?" she was like "sure!" and then we finally realized that it's impossible to spike hair as long as mine :( how unfortunate... anyway.. so we ended up putting a bunch of mousse in my hair for no reason, so then we just clipped up my hair randomly... awesome huh?! Haha.. okay and a normal pic.

Well.. semi normal... I was chewing on this spoon all day.

Anyway, erm... have a niceday everyone.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 00:09:09 GMT

I'm sorry, I don't have time to reply to my previous entries comments... but I will this time. Here are some of the pics from the beach... it was great.

http://photobucket.com/albums/v727/crazyvv/Beach%202005/

All of the pics.

Julie, Lan, My Hang, and me

Me standing by the umbrella? x.X

Me and KT haha

The Birthday Girl!

haha me and Andy

Sitting on a big chair? x.X

Me being a weirdo in front of Bowie's car... hahaha... I look like I'm actually serious.

playing in the kiddy rides haha.

me, Bowie, AT, and Andy :D

pretending to play cards LOL

hmmm.... haha

Okay well I only picked out pics that I was in cuz I didn't want my page to be full of pics. so yeah there (:

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 17:55:34 GMT

3 MORE FREAKING DAYS UNTIL MYRTLE BEACH!!!

I think i'm supposed to look like I'm about to cry but I look more like I'm about to laugh. @.@

It's hard to recognize me in this pic. I think it's my evil twin, BB.

There are more pics but I don't feel like uploading. *sigh*

I think I'm going to Raleigh for awhile.... =X

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 04:33:34 GMT

I'm going crazy. I can't stand AIM anymore. This is tedious, and tiring.

"Hey!
Hi...
How are you?
Good, wbu?
Great!! How was your day?
Pretty good, wbu?
Oh it was good!
That's cool...
What did you do?
Nothing, just sat around. wbu?
Watched some TV.
Cool.
Yep!!! So what are you up to now?
Talking to some people, wbu?
Same thing!
Cool...
lol, yeah.
Mmmhmm....
So are you doing anything this weekend?
Shut up before I beat the **** out of you."

Okay okay, maybe people don't say the last part, but that's how I feel sometimes.

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! I hate trying to keep a conversation going when I don't give a crap.

6 MORE DAYS UNTIL THE BEACH!

Friday, June 17, 2005

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 06:56:41 GMT

My late night entry...

So I just redid my xanga... as I'm up late at night, thinking. I did a mixture of a bunch of purples.... a bunch of my favorite color. I also hope you enjoy the song. It's the classical guitar version of "Schubert's Serenade"... if you want it, I'll give you the link to the song so you can download it. It's from the Summer Scent soundtrack.

Today was one of the worst days I've had in awhile. I feel like writing another poem, but I feel like I'm sucking out all my writing juices by writing so many poems. I like to wait for awhile. Hmm... anyway... here are the lyrics to my latest song obsession (other than Schubert's Serenade)

>edit< Okay I just took away the lyrics to that song.. I'll post it in another entry... but I just wrote a poem!

Every moment I spend
Away from dreaming
Is another moment
In absolute torture.

I try to not think
But feeling like this...
It’s inevitable,
You haunt my mind.

I drown myself
In my own sorrow
Hoping time
Will discontinue.

If only you knew
Your careless words
Were this painful
And this scarring.

I carry the tattoo
Of your cruelty
And your disregard.
I hope you’re ashamed.

I wish your reflection
Could reflect your foolishness,
So you could see
That you’re a coward...

Damn you, heartbreaker.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 02:51:29 GMT

I couldn't resist... with my poem and all.... I think this really goes along so I'm re doing my entry (so I can see how many comments I get NOW)

Once again... the poem I did the pictures for.

Do you know that it aches inside
Knowing you don't think of me
And all the times I solemnly cried
Added to my insanity

I held back to watch you smile
And it broke my heart to let go
"It hurts for just a little while"
I tried to tell myself, though

I lie to myself just for you
Even when it tears me apart
And with nothing left to do
I put away my dejected heart

Loneliness is nothing now
Just another part of my day
So I'll just lay back down
And let it waste away...